Headaches....

Today is Day 76..... I  have been having these headaches and I am pretty sure it is from being dehydrated.  I was never great at drinking enough water during the day before.  Now I drink some mineral water along with un-sweetened ice tea or regular water but since I no longer consuming lots of wine, I believe I am de-hydrated.  Especially now since it is winter and I am "not thirsty".  They say you should drink half your body weight in water daily. 

My goal the next few days is to drink more water and see if the headaches go away.  Today's headache is from late yesterday morning.  I took Motrin 2X yesterday and none today.  They are not migraines but just enough to be annoying and bother me.  If they don't go away I will let my MD know next week at my check up.  I pray they are not related to high BP.  The past year my BP has been slightly elevated and I hope it was from my wine habit.  If it is high next week, it obviously not booze related.

I went to the gym yesterday and I am so out of shape.  I haven't been in a month and the past several months I went maybe 3-6x per month.  It doesn't take long to lose your stamina, especially when you pack on extra weight too.  When I arrived I saw my bestie running on the treadmill.  Then I read on the new goal wall she lifted a new max.  We were always on the same fitness level.  I stopped my negative thoughts about myself nor would I compare myself to her when I stepped on the treadmill. Instead I kept to my plan of brisk walking and wouldn't let it get me down.  The past several months I was in bed, either being lazy or hung over while she was at the gym.  Now I have no excuses.  I completed 4.5 miles and today after work I plan to take the HIIT class which is a max of 30 mins class and walk 2 miles on the treadmill.  I need to start walking and hopefully add run/walk intervals for my 10K in February.  At this rate, I hope I can walk the 10K without dying!

Now off to grab another water bottle........

Momma Bee



 

Happy New Year

 

 

Happy New Year! 

 

I am looking forward to 2014 actually.  I am not making any big resolutions this year, not because every year I never stick to them but because I am already working on my resolution.  Today marks  70 days since I had a hangover or any booze.  It hasn't been easy the whole time but it hasn't been very hard either.  Dealing with my emotions has been the hardest and at times I felt like a basket case but I haven't give in.  I am proud at how far I have come and I look forward to how far I can go in 2014.  I will continue my journey to refrain from alcohol, continue the therapy sessions that deal with my relationship with food, continue taking my antidepressant and get my ass back to the gym.  I look forward to being more present for my children and all other areas of my personal and professional life in 2014.  I hope that my mood swings will even out in the new year and my mental health keeps improving.  Mentally, I feel so much better than this past summer.  I have my yearly physical in early January and I will speak to my MD about my recent anxiety and see if my script from last year is right for me now.

 

I wish you all many blessings in 2014 and I thank you for all your support. 

 

Momma Bee

 

Catching up on Day 66

I haven't fell off the face of the earth.... I had a very nice sober Christmas and my family did as well.  The kids made out like bandits again, spoiled rotten by the entire family.  We enjoyed a quiet relaxing Christmas day at home in our pajamas all day and we had a delicious dinner of Prime Rib prepared by my BF.  It couldn't of been any better.  My BF gave me a fancy camera and I am looking forward to a new hobby of taking photos of the kids and the outside world.  I am in awe when I see pretty photos of nature, or children taken by others and I really would like to try my hand at it.  It was the best gift I could of asked for.  We are vacationing in South America this coming February and I can't wait to take lots of photos. 

 

Today marks 66 days since my last hangover or drink if you will.  I like to think of it as my last hangover, the awful feeling of pain, guilt, shame and everything else that comes with it.  I am still listening to sober podcasts from Belle and the Bubble Hour, reading blogs about others journey's of  sobriety and started seeing a therapist for my food related issues.  I am happy that in the upcoming New Year I am not filled with regret of not achieving anything positive in regards to my health in 2013.  It did take me about 10 months of excessive drinking and eating this year to finally say, ENOUGH,  I can't do this anymore!!! I finally did say enough and I have begun on the path of recovery.  I have a big issue with using food and booze to deal and cope with my feelings and emotions and I am finally addressing it after all these years.  Well I hope I continue to address my issues in the new year and in hopes 2014 I will be much happier with myself both mentally and physically. 

 

My goal was to go 100 days without any booze.  I have attempted to do this once before and failed after 15 days.  I am not sure what clicked this time and I really don't think that matters,  I am just proud of myself for how far I have come.   

 

My journey will not be over at 100 days and I believe it will just be beginning of a "new life" as I turn 40 this summer.  

 

I am looking forward to a new year, a new outlook and new beginnings. 

 

 

 

 

Thanks for reading! 

 

Momma Bee