Well Christmas is officially over and I dont have any plans or parties on the horizon the next week, even for New Years. I have to work all week (not weekends). My children are with me for New Years so we will do something kid friendly. We are invited to a kid friendly party but I dont even want to go... right now I think staying home might be the plan.
After 5 days of no alcohol last week, I had 3 days of lots. Two big shin digs on Saturday the 22nd that left me with one of those nasty hangovers. Sunday I had a Bloody Mary at lunch to help kick the Hair of the Dog. Nope, didnt help. I think I had a headache off and on for 2 days. Xmas Eve I had plenty of wine and on Xmas Day I had more wine. I paid for it. My stomach has been on fire.... between the sugar, wine and junk food, my body is not happy. Today, I am staying away from sugar and the rest of week I'm pledging no wine ( or any alcohol) either.
January 2, I am starting a Whole 30 Clean Food Challenge to get my body back on track, which includes no alcohol. I need it. I have done this challenge before. Some friends are doing it with me so I have a good support group. Not only do I know I need to kick the alcohol habit, I see that sugar is my problem also. This past month when I started drinking more again, I started to eat more sugar and processed foods.
So its time to focus on my health, physically and mentally. I would love to say I am going alcohol free in 2013. Am I weak? Am I afraid to commit or admit I may have a problem? I finally realized I have been using alcohol to cope with stress, my feelings etc. I can't believe I was in such a fog the last two years. Do I just need a good therapist? Do I just want moderation to be my answer, oh wait, I have been trying moderation.
So I guess I'm just going to stay in limbo for a while until I make a commitment and a decision and stick with it. Someone blogged about or recently told me, dont take too much on. Just focus on something little. So I will. January I will officially start my challenge, eat clean whole foods and NO alcohol. Get back into my work out routine.
That's the plan.... one day at a time.